Sick As A Dog

So my last few days have been spent coughing, sneezing and blowing my nose....and getting some rest whenever I can. I have been so sick! I forgot what its like to be sick with a cold, its been at least a year..if not over. When I was pregnant my body was too busy rejecting anything that I put in my mouth it didn't have the chance to catch a cold. The baby is starting to get sick which just breaks my heart, its his first time. Last night was horrible. I was exhausted and the baby just screamed. I had to hold him in order to get any shut eye, and even then he was waking up about every hour or so. And his scream just broke my heart, he sounded so horrible. Then I had to get up at 4:30 to bring Seth to work for 5. Yahh!! So I'm running on an empty tank today. When I got home we slept for about 45 minutes but my brother came home from work and him and dad had to talk, and thus waking us up. People in this house have no respect for those who enjoy there sleep. Whatever, I'm sure the baby will go back to bed soon! I hope anyways!!

Last ngiht I was talking to seth about how I wish someone in the family had a business so I could work but work around the baby's schedule. Its kind of hard to commit to something when you have a little guy who decides the day. He reminded me that his aunt has a cleaning business and that I could probably go to work with her and get paid pretty decent money. Especially in the summer because my mom could have the baby in the mornings! What a good idea Seth! I am hoping that she use my help, and just clean for about 4 hours int he morning. Then we can put away anything I make to help save. We some money saved, which is nice but its burning a hole in my pocket just knowing that its there. I need to stay away from the bank account! Easier said then done. My brother and his fiance were supposed to go look at a house tonight bu its under contract..so they cant. It got me thinking that I really REALLY want to get the ball rolling on getting a place of our own. Seth has this new job and is getting a promotion in 2 months (FINGERS CROSSED) so he'll be making good money and I want to start cleaning houses...so I feel like its all moving in the right direction. My parents gave us land as I mentioned before, I just dont know if its buildable land. I have been warned by lots of different people that its harder then hell to get a building permit in this area....and if one piece of the land is buildable it may not be where i want it to be. I want to build in the front of the field just because we will have to pay for the road....expensive and then telephone polls, which are 500 a piece. That's crazy! So I am keeping my fingers crossed, and also keeping my eyes open. If there is something with land in our price range and it just seems right we may just have to jump on it. Right now building a brand new house is a dream, but I want it to become a reality. I am just keeping our options open and we'll see what happens. Right now I am just happy that things are getting going! My mom says that she's not ready for us to move out yet! And honestly I want to move out but at the same time I def. enjoy having her here all the time to help me with the baby. Although he is getting easier. I am learning though from this cold, that it doesn't matter what I feel or what I want...it's all about Camden! Which is fine, its just a shock to the system when you wnat to sleep it off and there's a little guy saying NO WAY MOM!

Yesterday when Seth came home from work we were layign the bed with the baby and he was talking to Cam and telling him to say Da Da and Cam said it! Or mumbled something that sounded like Da Da!! He's getting soooo big! I cant believe it! It seems like just yesterday I was mopping around the house complaining about my swelling belly and how miserable I was....ohh and bargaining with my unborn child that if he came out RIGHT NOW he could have anything he wanted....a nice car at 16, the best birthday parties..even have girls sleep over! ha, nothing worked. But now here he is....almost crawling, talking, eating baby foods....smiling and laughing and being a little individual. Its crazy, everyone told me how fast it goes, I just never thought it would for me. Geeeez was I wrong. Well I must get going, my sick baby boy needs his momma for some hugs and cuddles!!