Thursday night was Seth's first performance at the Comedy Connection. I am so proud of him! He did such a good job. He won 2nd place, so he's moving on to the finals. 7 people performed and only 2 made it to next week and Seth got 2nd place. The only reason he didn't get first is because the other guy who won first had been all over the place performing, this was Seth's fist time ever. He rocked it. I had so much fun watching my man up there making a whole room full of people laugh. The headliner afterwards told the auidence to never forget his name and then went up to seth and told him again what an awesome job and gave him the look like you got it. Just keep performing. After the contest him and some friends went to some random bar down the Old Port and the judges happened to be there as well, and one came up to seth and told him what an amazing job he did and gave him her card, turns out she works with Bob Marley and George Hamm. She wants Seth to call her to set something up. I am so happy for him, I cant say it enough! He actually did his dream, stand up comedy. In high school he did theatre and he always said " LOOK FOR ME ON THE BIG SCREEN". And that just might come true!
The baby has 2 teeth and one more coming in on the top. He's been sleeping better, thank god and napping more in the day. So I'm getting a break, even though I have to hold him because the minute I lay him down he wakes up. I've adjusted very well to being a mom and having no ''me'' time ne more. I love being at home with him and wouldn't have it any other way. He's a doll.
Today my friend Liza had a baby shower and Camden was a hit! Everyone loved him. I love how he acts around strangers, he has his days when all he wants is mommy but today he did awesome. He's a charmer for sure. He's not nursing in public ne more though, which is strange. There is just too much going on for him to stop and eat. So he goes a while without eating when we are in public, sometimes he doesn't even want baby food. I cant wait for Liza to have her baby. Its a girl, so her and Camden are going to be best friends! They are naming her Carmella, which is actually one of the girl names I had picked out for him, if he would have been a girl.
My mom is convinced that I'm having another baby. I have been so sick lately. In the morning I feel like I am going to throw-up and sometimes through out the day, but I think its lack of sleep. I am breastfeeding around the clock and on birth control. If I am pregnant again I am going to kill my husband! It could be the weather and how its going from hot to cold and me not sleeping. Who knows, but I don't think I'm pregnant. At least I hope not. She told my dad and he's as happy as a pig in shit, he's obsessed with Camden and since he was born he's been asking me when I'm having another one. I guess that grandparent's really do adore there grandchild (ern). Camden has everything already, they spoil him rotten. They get all the bennies, so I guess that's a pretty good deal. But no thank you. I def. want more, at least try again for a girl and if its a boy MAYBE a third but not anytime soon. Me and Seth have a deal once we build our house we will wait one year and then have another one. We are not in any finicial condition to build our house so I def. dont want 2 babies living here..and def. dont want 2 babies back to back! I still have about 20 pounds to go until I am back to my regular size. Plus, I am just adjusting to Cam....I want to spend all of my time on him not have to divide it ..yet. I am teaching him sign language and thursday he started doing the sign that means "eat''. He's like the smartest baby ever. He's also moving his walker all around like a champ and getting on his knees to begin crawling. He's already figured out how to get around, he's been rolling to where ever his little heart desires. Time to start baby proofing! I cant wait for summer, or at least nicer weather to take him out in the green grass. And go camping with him and bring him in the pool. There is so much for him to discover. Having a kid makes me feel like a kid again. It's so awesome to see the world through his eyes. Its only been 5 months but I'm having an awesome experience!!!
Sunday, March 30, 2008
Thursday, March 20, 2008
Going Through The Motions
So this weekend I hung out with an old friend from high school. We were always friends but now we have more in common then ever before. She's 8 months pregnant and married! It was so nice to be around someone hwo understands the up's and down's of marriage and I got to give her my input on the upcoming child birth! She is so excited and I am for her too. I remember the last 2 months, it was rough. It was amazing to me because people change so much from high school and I noticed how much I have changed from being around her. Who cares if your hair didn't get straightened for that day or if your lip gloss isn't what's in style. What matters is your baby, what matters is his health, what matters is keeping your sanity and your marriage going. Those are the things that are important to me. I laugh about what i used to think mattered, it was so stupid. I guess I can't come down on myself too hard, I didn't know any better.
Its finally spring! yiipp-ee! Doesn't feel like it though. I let the dogs out this morning and got quite a chill! I finally did my mid-term and only got an 85. blah, I'm pretty dissapointd in myself. My mom says not to come down on myself to hard...I do have a 5 month old that for one reason or another REFUSES to sleep. Although last night I gave him some baby tyolenol and he slept most of the night. His teeth are bugging him! He already has 2! I can't beleive how fast he growing. Seth got the job that he applied for almost 3 weeks ago! I am thrilled! Its monday through friday 7 to 3 kind of job, perfect for us and pays 15.00. My dad got him it so I told him whether he likes it or not, he's staying there! I think that we both have cabin fever! His doctor called him yesterday and he may have to have surgery on his back. He has 3 herinated discs in his back and they don't think steriod shots are going to be enough. I joke that I am going to be married to a crippled mexican! ha. I really do worry and hope that surgery will not be the best idea. Surgery on the back is pretty scary. He's in so much pain though, he can't even get out of bed or sit down. The look on his face reminds me of the face I had when I was in labor. Last year he had an MRI and he had only one herinated disc, now its three. Obv. its getting worse before it gets better. He has pain pills but they just make him sick to his stomache and he's been taking them so often that he needs to take more then one to feel any effect. I massage his back but even that hurts him. Its painful to watch him gimp around.
I hope that soon we will be living on our own. I am fighting with the thought of going back to work to help with the money...or lack of money. This won't be until after I finish school and am done breastfeeding. But my dream would be to pay for the materials as we build and only take out a big loan for the well, septic and foundation. My dad can do most of the building and he has friends. So paying for the materials would be super. That I am sure is everyone's dream. My parents gave us an acre and thats 90,000 so we have that in equity! I just need to be on my own with my family. My parents are driving me insane. Always telling me what to do with Camden. Its not fair, they didn't have parents us there asses telling them what to do! I just wish they would lay off a bit and give us a chance to be first timers..instead of breathing down our throats every 5 seconds. I know that they mean well, but i have asked them to stop and they think that I am joking. Well the baby is awake so I must be going!
HAPPY SPRING! :D
Its finally spring! yiipp-ee! Doesn't feel like it though. I let the dogs out this morning and got quite a chill! I finally did my mid-term and only got an 85. blah, I'm pretty dissapointd in myself. My mom says not to come down on myself to hard...I do have a 5 month old that for one reason or another REFUSES to sleep. Although last night I gave him some baby tyolenol and he slept most of the night. His teeth are bugging him! He already has 2! I can't beleive how fast he growing. Seth got the job that he applied for almost 3 weeks ago! I am thrilled! Its monday through friday 7 to 3 kind of job, perfect for us and pays 15.00. My dad got him it so I told him whether he likes it or not, he's staying there! I think that we both have cabin fever! His doctor called him yesterday and he may have to have surgery on his back. He has 3 herinated discs in his back and they don't think steriod shots are going to be enough. I joke that I am going to be married to a crippled mexican! ha. I really do worry and hope that surgery will not be the best idea. Surgery on the back is pretty scary. He's in so much pain though, he can't even get out of bed or sit down. The look on his face reminds me of the face I had when I was in labor. Last year he had an MRI and he had only one herinated disc, now its three. Obv. its getting worse before it gets better. He has pain pills but they just make him sick to his stomache and he's been taking them so often that he needs to take more then one to feel any effect. I massage his back but even that hurts him. Its painful to watch him gimp around.
I hope that soon we will be living on our own. I am fighting with the thought of going back to work to help with the money...or lack of money. This won't be until after I finish school and am done breastfeeding. But my dream would be to pay for the materials as we build and only take out a big loan for the well, septic and foundation. My dad can do most of the building and he has friends. So paying for the materials would be super. That I am sure is everyone's dream. My parents gave us an acre and thats 90,000 so we have that in equity! I just need to be on my own with my family. My parents are driving me insane. Always telling me what to do with Camden. Its not fair, they didn't have parents us there asses telling them what to do! I just wish they would lay off a bit and give us a chance to be first timers..instead of breathing down our throats every 5 seconds. I know that they mean well, but i have asked them to stop and they think that I am joking. Well the baby is awake so I must be going!
HAPPY SPRING! :D
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
Offical Blogger!
So I have decided to join this "blogger craze". I have some thoughts behind blogging and what really convinced me to start!
1). Help keep my sanity
2). I love writing and always have thoughts storming around in my head.
So here's some back round on me. I married my on and off again boyfriend of 5 years this past summer after finding out I was pregnant. What a shock to the system that was. We had just gotten back together and boom a month later I was pregnant. Of course I panicked and Mexico never sounded so good as it did in that moment, but I realized that I was always wanted to be a mom, and age shouldn't be a factor. I mean, at least I graduated high school and was intending on going to college. In fact, almost a month exactly before finding out, I had signed up for a Medical Assisting course and was starting classes. So how hard could becoming a mom be? I mean I'd have to get through telling my non-approving of boyfriend parent's but they'd eventually get over it and he had a semi-good paying job. Things would be perfect. I'd have this adorable baby bump and then have the most perfect, well-behaved little darling anyone had ever seen. Was I in for it or what?! I told my mom and she was so angry at me she couldn't even look at me and as for telling my dad I left that up to her. They had been married for 25 years, if she couldn't tell him then how was I going too? Looking back I regret not sitting my parents down and just spilling my beans for them, but as that saying goes "wish I would have known then what I know now" is becoming the motto of my life. My father was more hurt that I didn't tell him then anything else. Oops. I feel really guilty. They got over it as I presumed they would and convinced us to move in with them. My boyfriend went kicking and screaming but did the right thing! We got married June 30 and it was the perfect day minus the fact that I was 6 months pregnant and miserable in the heat. But family and friends surrounded us and supported us and that's all that mattered to me. Plus, there he was, the most perfect man in the world for me, standing there smiling back. Life was good.
Skip ahead to October, 70 pounds heavier and I woke up crying every single morning blaming Seth (my husband) for putting me through this and begging for my unborn child to come out. It was not a pleasant 9 months and I was in and out of the hospital with high blood pressure, horrible aches in my stomach and was probably being a huge baby about the entire thing but hey, it was my first time how was I to know that peeing your pants did NOT mean labor was only hours a way. But on October 17 at 4:26 A.M. I held the most beautiful, sweetest little creature God ever created. From the gecko he was the most pleasant baby. An angel...until we brought him home and he discovered his vocal cords.
Currently life is a bit chaotic to say the least. Living with my parents first and foremost is stressful. God bless them for allowing us to live here and providing for us and guiding us through this....they just need to learn there opinions are there's and not ours. My husband struggles with authority and feels we are under constant surveillance, which is more then likely the case. I hear on a daily basis how I am doing SOMETHING wrong with MY child and I apperciate the help but enough is enough sometimes. If I don't jump to my son's first cry then I am "neglecting" him which as anyone who knows me knows this is NOT the case my dad just loves to tease me. Which in turn leaves me feeling the most guilt, on top of the guilt for taking a second for my self. My son is as any 5 month old, needing constant cuddling. He refuses to sleep alone, play alone, or do anything without ME holding me. He's in this phase where its MUMMA MUMMA MUMMA. No one but MUMMA. A break is my book is a shower and I am lucky to have that. Usually I have a friend right there outside of the shower curtain wailing for me to come out. To break the cry I play peek-a-boo so getting a good full washing really doesn't happen that often. (TMI? too bad!) Plus, since I am a stay at home mom my parents...(excuse me my dad) expects the house to be spotless and did I mention that my brother and his girlfriend live here and dont do anything to help out around here. So 7 people live here and me and my mom are the only ones expected to clean...and she works 40 hours a week. It's sooo stressful. Luckily my parents own a 5 bedroom house so we are spaced out and get our own privacy ..thank god! My husband is counting the days until we can afford our own place. We chose not to rent as we feel its a money pit and hard to get out of to own. Living here is a decision we made and its not that bad..well at least some days aren't that bad.
Most days I am alone with my 5 month old son. He's the best gift in the world! He's teething at the moment so anyone whos a mom knows that these are not the funniest days. But I am surviving. Him smiling back at me makes everything well worth it. Laying in bed at night with my husband and baby boy between us makes my heart swell. I thought I had felt love with my husband but nothing compares to the "mini-him". Those boys have my heart. But as any relationship we not are perfect. Sometimes I feel we are fighting just to fight. Just to scream and get out what we have been wanting too from the last fight. We always make up, after he leaves to cools off and I cry to my mom. She must be so sick of hearing it! I have been with him since I was 14 and although we have our ups and downs nothing makes me happier then just spending the day with him and my son. Nothing complicated just my itty bitty little family!
Did I forget to mention that we live on a farm? We have 3 dogs 4 horses and 3 chickens. And I guess the rumor is my dad wants some cows and pigs this spring. So needless to say this is a pretty busy place to be. Of course, there's never a dull moment but sometimes that's all I dream about...peace and quiet! Well that's it for now. But don't worry there's lots more where all that came from :D
1). Help keep my sanity
2). I love writing and always have thoughts storming around in my head.
So here's some back round on me. I married my on and off again boyfriend of 5 years this past summer after finding out I was pregnant. What a shock to the system that was. We had just gotten back together and boom a month later I was pregnant. Of course I panicked and Mexico never sounded so good as it did in that moment, but I realized that I was always wanted to be a mom, and age shouldn't be a factor. I mean, at least I graduated high school and was intending on going to college. In fact, almost a month exactly before finding out, I had signed up for a Medical Assisting course and was starting classes. So how hard could becoming a mom be? I mean I'd have to get through telling my non-approving of boyfriend parent's but they'd eventually get over it and he had a semi-good paying job. Things would be perfect. I'd have this adorable baby bump and then have the most perfect, well-behaved little darling anyone had ever seen. Was I in for it or what?! I told my mom and she was so angry at me she couldn't even look at me and as for telling my dad I left that up to her. They had been married for 25 years, if she couldn't tell him then how was I going too? Looking back I regret not sitting my parents down and just spilling my beans for them, but as that saying goes "wish I would have known then what I know now" is becoming the motto of my life. My father was more hurt that I didn't tell him then anything else. Oops. I feel really guilty. They got over it as I presumed they would and convinced us to move in with them. My boyfriend went kicking and screaming but did the right thing! We got married June 30 and it was the perfect day minus the fact that I was 6 months pregnant and miserable in the heat. But family and friends surrounded us and supported us and that's all that mattered to me. Plus, there he was, the most perfect man in the world for me, standing there smiling back. Life was good.
Skip ahead to October, 70 pounds heavier and I woke up crying every single morning blaming Seth (my husband) for putting me through this and begging for my unborn child to come out. It was not a pleasant 9 months and I was in and out of the hospital with high blood pressure, horrible aches in my stomach and was probably being a huge baby about the entire thing but hey, it was my first time how was I to know that peeing your pants did NOT mean labor was only hours a way. But on October 17 at 4:26 A.M. I held the most beautiful, sweetest little creature God ever created. From the gecko he was the most pleasant baby. An angel...until we brought him home and he discovered his vocal cords.
Currently life is a bit chaotic to say the least. Living with my parents first and foremost is stressful. God bless them for allowing us to live here and providing for us and guiding us through this....they just need to learn there opinions are there's and not ours. My husband struggles with authority and feels we are under constant surveillance, which is more then likely the case. I hear on a daily basis how I am doing SOMETHING wrong with MY child and I apperciate the help but enough is enough sometimes. If I don't jump to my son's first cry then I am "neglecting" him which as anyone who knows me knows this is NOT the case my dad just loves to tease me. Which in turn leaves me feeling the most guilt, on top of the guilt for taking a second for my self. My son is as any 5 month old, needing constant cuddling. He refuses to sleep alone, play alone, or do anything without ME holding me. He's in this phase where its MUMMA MUMMA MUMMA. No one but MUMMA. A break is my book is a shower and I am lucky to have that. Usually I have a friend right there outside of the shower curtain wailing for me to come out. To break the cry I play peek-a-boo so getting a good full washing really doesn't happen that often. (TMI? too bad!) Plus, since I am a stay at home mom my parents...(excuse me my dad) expects the house to be spotless and did I mention that my brother and his girlfriend live here and dont do anything to help out around here. So 7 people live here and me and my mom are the only ones expected to clean...and she works 40 hours a week. It's sooo stressful. Luckily my parents own a 5 bedroom house so we are spaced out and get our own privacy ..thank god! My husband is counting the days until we can afford our own place. We chose not to rent as we feel its a money pit and hard to get out of to own. Living here is a decision we made and its not that bad..well at least some days aren't that bad.
Most days I am alone with my 5 month old son. He's the best gift in the world! He's teething at the moment so anyone whos a mom knows that these are not the funniest days. But I am surviving. Him smiling back at me makes everything well worth it. Laying in bed at night with my husband and baby boy between us makes my heart swell. I thought I had felt love with my husband but nothing compares to the "mini-him". Those boys have my heart. But as any relationship we not are perfect. Sometimes I feel we are fighting just to fight. Just to scream and get out what we have been wanting too from the last fight. We always make up, after he leaves to cools off and I cry to my mom. She must be so sick of hearing it! I have been with him since I was 14 and although we have our ups and downs nothing makes me happier then just spending the day with him and my son. Nothing complicated just my itty bitty little family!
Did I forget to mention that we live on a farm? We have 3 dogs 4 horses and 3 chickens. And I guess the rumor is my dad wants some cows and pigs this spring. So needless to say this is a pretty busy place to be. Of course, there's never a dull moment but sometimes that's all I dream about...peace and quiet! Well that's it for now. But don't worry there's lots more where all that came from :D
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