A Brand New Day

Last night at class my teacher was falling asleep mid-sentence. His eyes would roll back in his head and his words would become all mumbled together. He is like a medical mystery so his dose of painkillers that he takes everyday would kill a normal person but he functions on 3800 mg of oxy's. They changed his meds and the effects are not being able to function. I couldn't even look at him- I just burst out laughing at every nod. It was so funny. It was like we were being secretly tapped and someone was going to jump out of the woodworks with a camera and say "your on candid camera" or some other foolish t.v. show. But no no, this is my everyday real life. Even my teacher can't function right. I think someone is trying to send me a message?

I took a leave of absence at work to focus on finishing school. With my grandpapa dying I needed a reality check. It was too hard for me to juggle everything. Seth is out on the job market looking for something but, really there is nothing. Its definately an employers market, and with no trade skills, its pretty hard to get an employer to look at your resume. We did our taxes and will live off those until I finish my schooling and get a job. I am excited. For the first time since signing up for CMA I am really excited about getting out there. Camden is older now, and can handle daycare a few times a week. My mom can watch him in the summer and on school vacations, so that'll help. Cam needs the socialization. He doesn't know how to play with other kids. When I take him out where there are other children he plays by himself or just watches the other kids. Its like he's afriad to jump in and get friendly. So, I think that he needs other kids to play with. I swore on everything that my child would never ever go to daycare. Not in one million years. Over my dead body. But, now that he's older and I've had 1+ years with my darling boy, I think he would enjoy the activies and fun that comes with being with other kids all day. Plus, the reality is that we both have to work. So what other options are there? I have talked to other moms who do the daycare scene and they told me that there kids love it. And I thought about it. It does sound like fun. A bestfriend. Crafts. Story time. Painting. Fieldtrips. Songs. Big Books. Puppet shows. hmmmm.....sounds like a great day to me. we'll see. Even as I write, I have mega anxiety.

anyway,

its friday. i don't have no job...... i don't have no money............
looks like cleaning and laundry and vroom vrooms for me.
well, thats if my monster mash gets up. Its 10:05 in the a.m. and the little bugger is still sleeping. ahhh life is good<3